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I have a soft spot for Shimura Takako's idiosyncrasies as a writer. She tells mundane stories about mundane people - even if the subject matter is something fantastical, like "Sayonara, Otokonoko", it's still told in a way that resembles everyday life - but the way she does it is not very conventional in itself. The story is always jumping from present to past and then to present again, from a real situation to a imaginary one, from reality to dream. Sometimes a conversation is being held by two characters and in the very next panel - without warning or proper closure - different characters are now the ones talking about the very same thing. The flow of time always feels off: days, weeks and sometimes months can pass by from one chapter to the other with the only indicator of it being few, very easy to miss, hints. She seems to really like this little tricks and abuses it, sometimes to the point of incomprehensibility, that's true, but it's generally easy to follow. Hourou Musuko is the work where her techniques shines the brightest.

The reason for this became quite apparent for me this time around: it's because of it's length and the very nature of the story itself.

HM's major selling point, sexuality and gender non-conformity, isn't explored in a big, dramatic fashion, but rather in a very grounded way. It's a important thing to understand about the story: it isn't so much about depicting non-conformity, but slowly following Shuuichi and Takatsuki and observing how they'll deal with it while slowly, and I mean slowly, growing up. This is a character piece, not a thematic driven story. Making that distinction is vital to knowing what you're getting yourself at.

Anyway, the first 2/3 of the series are spent with introducting and getting us to know the characters which will form Shuu's group and their (I'll be using they to refer to Shuuichi, see below) family. Most of the time is spent with this kids hanging around, doing their every day chores. Little conflicts are born here and there, different combinations and interactions are born between the kids. Major conflicts also show up, but it never feels bigger than it really is (think about how Shuu being bullied after that event is portrayed).

However, the point where the series full strenght resides is, for me, the last third, which ironically is the most criticized section of the manga. While before there was a feeling of steady progression - for Shimura's standart, that is - and familiarity with the cast and their environment, now, starting with the last year of middle school, they have to face separation. For Shuuichi, that also means that their body will start developing into a man's one. The very ground on which everything was build upon is now no more.

That separation isn't only there as a stone cold fact, but it's felt organically through storytelling. What I mean by this is that the way that Shimura was handling the whole thing until that point starts to change. The progression of time, which was never very clear, becomes even faster. Instead of parting from the other kids and shifting the focus completely on Shuu's experience on highschool, Shimura's allows us to see, even more than before, tiny parts of every character's daily experiences.

The usual criticism thrown at HM's endgame - actually in it's entirety, but especially the last part - is that the focus becomes so lacking that it feels like that this's a story about nothing at all. Said argument couldn't be further from the truth. The beauty of the whole thing is that Shimura back away from one character and let us witness something much bigger than just that single perspective. By seeing a bit of each character, little by little, without us noticing, a much bigger picture is formed right in front of us. It's by seeing how them - not only Shuu's group, but their mother, father, sister, sister's boyfriend, Yuuki, Shii, the crossdresser they met while working as a waitress, in short, everyone, really everyone - lives their life that a larger than life feeling is born. Shuuichi's still is the central character, but what we're shown is the very network that sorround they, even if they're not aware of it.

What makes it so poignant is the fact that everything is really mundane: no major conflicts, no high stakes, so there's no chance for a happily ever after ending. It's like that quiet, sad feeling you get sometimes without any specific reason. This feeling is born from the awareness of the passage of time. The constant shifting of focus and the ambiguous nature of time in HM creates a blurring feeling that dominates it's pages. I'm talking about Shuu suddenly thinking about their friends from their first school and how they're a distant memory and then recalling their girl friends' faces, or when Shuu and Sasa meets and they just chat a little, or when Takatsuki sees Shuu and all they can do is exchange fast greetings, or when Shuu is thinking back when they used to be confident about wearing girl's clothes but the image we're actually seeing is they shaving their now manly face.

Time is passing, we're aware of it and from that awareness a bittersweet feeling is born. We see the characters changing, growing up. Some of them are still together, some grew apart, some are making new bonds, and none of this really has any big significance or serves for advancing the plot, because there's barely one to begin with. It's just like peeking through the real lives of this different individuals that you came to know rather well. It weighs on your heart because you know they're just about to take the next step, to become adults, to go their separate ways, and that things will never be like they used to: it's a universal truth that affects not only these fictional characters, but also us, real people.

"One wanted to be a boy. One wanted to be a girl. One stopped wanting to be a boy. That's all there is it to it"

This scene is simultaneously Takatsuki and Shuu's much needed resolution and the best way to end and summarise what everything is about. Because that's really all there is to it. That's the story of the life of two kids (and some others) who were once closely bonded but aren't anymore. Takatsuki's crying while thanking Shuu for holding her hand is just that. She knows that they aren't like they used to be, that they chose different paths and, because of that, the very thing that made them once kindred spirits is now the one that separates them, and she feels sorry and sad for it. But Shuu will keep walking, for it's already decided: she's a girl.

Shimura's tricks with time that I mentioned earlier is precisely what makes the ending such a heavy blow. The climatic interaction between our two main protagonists has already happened in the past, but we, as readers, only get to know how it really ended on the very last chapter, where, in a context where Shuu is getting ready to leave home and move to the beginning of their adulthood, the flashback from Takatsuki's crying face is revealed, and it's that very page that takes our emotional awareness to it's climax.

What happens afterwards - just a few pages, that is - is such a small, non-epic, almost matter of factly way of ending such a huge story that it has precisely the reverse effect. It feels huge, real and important

I personally, no, certainly think that the story plays out much better if you read Shuu not as a representative of what a transsexual woman should or should not be, but as an individual who wants to live their life as they please. You can call them a trans woman or a man with a clothes fetish, but this doesn't diminishes Hourou Musuko's power.

This is really, at heart, a coming of age story, even though gender and sexuality plays a big part in it this still is a story - Shuu's story, but also about the ones around them - about growing up and everything that comes with it. Growing up and following your path.

Someone pointed perfectly in the discussion thread: Yuki is not the transexual. Yuki is Yuki. that's how we come to think about it. Mako is Mako. Shuu is Shuu. Chiba is Chiba. Takatsuki is Takatsuki. That's the story of their lives and how they're interconnected. To achieve this is really so exemplary and just proves how great and worth of it's length this series is.