i never though my life experience will exist as a manga form that is Usotsuki Paradox.

every chapter reminds me of the bitterness that i had in the past with the one i loved. clearly i cannot view this manga on objective view, because this one really close at home. i feel like i’ve reading my life again, thinking how stupid their decision was until i realized i’ve done this too. i feel hurt just to see how similiar is my resemblance with the character, even until the end.

you’ll never knew how logically possible this manga is until you actually experience on how pathetic you can be for someone you love so much, how you can go to lowest of low of your dignity, just for the one you love. how willingly you to do anything, just for the one you love. and yes, it’s all lie that you’ve made up because you’re afraid. i was once that too.

4 characters here. Seiyuu, Youkadou, Mai and Kazuki, are major character that influence the story of love and lies that makes us excited, shocked, and disgusted.

“Romance where nobody gets hurt is a delusion, what you’re doing is protecting yourself and avoiding responsibility.” this is the manga summed up in one sentence

i want to give a review subjectively as i retell my real life resemblance with this manga.

-from this point on, i will start dropping Spoiler.-

to tell you how similiar the resemblance with me?, yes, i shared too, that’s the lowest i’ve ever been and i’ll never planned to witness that experience again. you think this is some kind of a good fetish and it’s good that the problem is resolved, but no, it hurts so bad. i utterly respect Kazuki for what he’s done, he willingly to put a facade for a long time just to make everything works out, to make everything just like what it was, to keeping up everything together, at least for Kazuki and Seiyuu, despite the fact it doesnt, and it never will.

and yes, i was once cheating with my own childhood friend. just like Kazuki. when i read this manga, i was very surprised how this turns out to be an exact mirror of my life, and what makes me sad is that the story of their relationship also ends up exactly like my life.

i can list almost 80% of the similiar resemblance, but i think that’s not the point.

all i can say is that, this manga hits me on personal level that i can’t even imagined, it hits you with a realization that even the most seemingly absurd concept, can even worked out in real life. what seemingly impossible, possible.

love fueled with lies can’t never be put out, once you jump there, you’ll never go back, comforting lies is always appealing, until you realize how much damaged you put, that you cant even shows the truth anymore.

these character is an embodiment of trash. all of these people, using lie to forge your way to the top of your fake happiness. but just because it’s trash doesnt mean it’s neccesarily untrue. because becoming an adult doesnt mean we become a good people....

“to become an adult means to be good at telling lies, right?”